Bitterness

"The walls of bitterness are impenetrable and your dreams will not be able to pass through, nor the other good qualities you possess in abundance."

I've been so damn bitter lately and a huge bitch. I need to continue to let go. I've been doing it all my life, then all of the sudden in the past few years, I haven't been able to as much.

Its funny, anything with my family can pass over me no problem. I believe thats because I'm stuck with the family I have, I'll always have them, no matter what. Anything that isn't family related though, I am bitter about things. Past relationships, friendships, etc. all, I believe, because those required choices. Choices that I made. I have to live with everything I do, they're my consequences. In a time where any mistake is easily fixed and erasable, not enough people learn to look at the consequences before they act. I did, and I made the choices. Its funny, I am happy as can be, but still bitter. I have a great life, but still resent others. Can we all just never be satisfied by what we have?

Today, I will be satisfied.

Great things I have:

Ted, my awesome boyfriend who may just do anything for me, including drive an hour to just say hi then drive back.

Danielle, my best friend who has always been there for me since we were random roomies Freshman year in 2006.

Kim, my other best friend who I fell in love with when she moved in with us Sophomore Year. She's got style, class, and is badass. Like that? I rhymed about her... she's just that cool.

Sarah, my sister :]

My family, as disfunctional as they are, they are still my family and they are still going to be there for me if I struggle or need help.

Quincy & Figgy, My adorable pets who are trouble and handful, but still provide unconditional love... as long as I feed them.

My health, I could be way worse off with Chiari 1

My future, I'm graduating and moving to Denver, Colorado soon and hopefully I will have a prosporous and healthy future in whatever I end up doing.

My car, It's new, runs great, and Teal... who could ask for more? Oh yeah... ONSTARRRR! I have a phone in my car!

My internship, this only can help me in my future, plus I make great money for a semester.

School, I <3 NIU, almost done and I want to keep the party. Also, I'm getting an A in the 1 class I have this semester, just barely by 90%, but its still an A!

A house, I'm lucky to actually be housed and not be homeless like so many out there.

No Addictions, I may enjoy a cig on the weekends and a few drinks, but I'm not a raging alcoholic. No drug has ever interfeared with my life, and I'm glad for it. There are too many people out there hopelessly addicted to Meth, or Crack, or Heroin.

My sense of humor, it's gotten me this far in life, I have no doubt it can take me further.

So here it is... I'm letting go. It's like a mental cleaning.

Joke time: What are 2 things you will NEVER have at Breakfast?

Answer: Lunch and Dinner. LOLOL Thanks Laffy Taffy!

Good Day sirs.