My first post, where has my creativity gone?

I have a large amount of topics to cover over time. I hope I can keep up with these posts, as I usually give up on anything I do about 5 minutes after I start it.

Topics include:
Family
School
Internship
Work
Relationships
Drugs
Health
Future
General Life Questions

By the way, why am I not creative? It's interesting how my roommates are art majors but have the same math ability of a 4 year old. I have superior math skills and very good procedural skills, but have the creativity of a man beat into reality after 40 years of hard life. I can finish a sudoku like its my job, but stare at a blank sheet of paper for 40 minutes before I can even try to create something.

Last note - everyday I feel as if I'm getting much much closer to the brink of crazy and there is nothing to stop me from it. Everyday I have a stronger and stronger urge to just go MIA, leave my life behind, and never look back.

My current favorite song which describes me: All the above by Maino featuring T-Pain